Ambiguity

I was happy
I was a happy sperm when i won the race.
Scared, i cried like hell
Seeing the old nurse's tired face.
I was a dreamer
I dreamed of free wings and a newer horizon,
the world on the other side and a bright new sun.
But then hey, 
They never taught me how to dream,
A lil too grey.. A lil less did i say..
That their reality always lacked the cream.

I was a traveller
I travelled through the stagnant planes, ups, downs
Pretty strangers who walked by in glossy gowns..
But then this heart that i carried along 
Always bore this undefined , unrealized ambiguity
A soul drifting by in sheer anonymity..

I am still me
Anonymous, obscure, confused..
and yet there's always one more dream to see
One more highway that wants me to flee.
And why so hard is it even now
That this empty soul cant give up on reality?..